I am a sales representative for a medical devices company and also a keen yogini with a strong physical daily asana practice. I had an injury during a yoga 3 years ago and it just wouldn’t heal, so I was experiencing lots of pain and stiffness in my whole right side along with anger and depression. I had tried so many different modalities from physical stuff, energetic to psychological work and nothing really helped me long term.
I met Paul when he spoke at The Yes Group in London and I volunteered to go on stage to experience his work. After 5 mins of working with him, I felt much calmer about an issue that was causing me much anxiety – finding a place to live in less than 2 weeks! I had a introductory Skype chat with him to explain about the chronic pain issue and to see if he could help me heal. I decided to sign up for 12 sessions with him , as he had gone though a chronic physical issue and healed himself.
He was very upfront about how long it might take to work through a chronic issue, so I knew it wasn’t going to be a one session magic fix (sob)! The sessions were done over Skype and luckily for me Paul was very flexible with his diary as my work can be unpredictable.
I was in a very depressed and anxious state when I started working with Paul and in a lot of physical pain. Though working with Paul I came to understand that I has used yoga as a way of moving emotions through me and now that I couldn’t do a strong practice I had to deal with all my suppressed and unresolved issues. I wasn’t prepared for the amount of stuff that came up – I think I have pretty much cried my way though all the sessions. I have my moon in Leo so I want to do something with my emotions. Paul helped me to sit with my emotions and deal with them rather than running away or distracting myself. My emotions were so overwhelming that I used to get myself in to such a state and have a massive melt down with so much drama and resistance (well my sun is in Leo too)!
Over time and working with Paul, I have found I am dealing with my emotions much better and I have more ability to sit with them and feel them. Working with a chronic issue is a process of pattern identification. They are complex with physical, emotional, somatic and also psychological components, all of which are intertwined . This process isn’t linear either and I have found it can be two steps forward and one step backward.
Paul has a very humble, gentle and compassionate way of working which allowed me to open up and be vulnerable. We have dealt with some really deep core issues and after our sessions I feel lighter and happier. I have had periods of no pain at all for weeks at a time (which is amazing as it was 3 years of constant pain before) and I believe this is due to a combination of working with a great physio to help manage the physical symptoms and Paul to deal with the underlying emotions and thought forms that are keeping this pattern in place. The pain and contraction pattern still triggers to some degree if have a moment of unconsciousness and push myself too much physically, although it feels like the pattern is slowly unwinding. As a bonus I am able to be more present in my body and so I can feel more energy flow and pleasure in my system. I have more periods of happiness and joy than I have experienced in the past.
Paul has also helped me to have a different perspective on the chronic pain – although I would much prefer not to have it, I do appreciate it is calling me into more, to wake up. I feel like I am making so much process that I have decided to continue working with Paul and I am open to the possibility of writing another testimonial in 3 months saying I am pain free.